(2005)
Still remembering the old.
I miss you.
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Create in me a clean heart, O Lord.
And renew a right spirit within me.
Cast me not away, from thy presence O Lord.
Take not thy holy spirit from me
Restore unto me, the joy of my salvation.
And renew a right spirit within me..
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As the deer panteth for the water
So my soul longeth after Thee
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Even so.
Sometimes the truth is that no matter how desperate i get, It still doesnt work that way. Whyy.
Who am i. What have i become. I need to find who i was and I miss the old me. I lost the principles in which i once thought i stood so firmly on and i'm desperate for change..
Mistakes made and you want to make a turn from it. but where did second chances go. Somehow this whole thing about Forgiveness doesnt really work in real life, maybe only in my life.
People remember you for your past and the bad things you do more than they they remember the fact that you are desperate for a change.
Where did second chances go.
I dont deserve it i guess. Now i question my existence.
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What am i saying. what is happening.
I'm sorrryy.
I just need someone, just anyone, to believe that i can do it again. To believe that i can different
