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i feel so accomplished today.
1. i actually woke up at 830 a.m. and went for a morning jog with meyer :)
i feel so accomplished today.
1. i actually woke up at 830 a.m. and went for a morning jog with meyer :)
(couldnt resist the temptation cos the weather was so good after a rainy morning),
2. Dropped by the management office to make a new resident card :)
(finally. after much procrastination. but i had to pay like $21. tsk tsk),
3. Got change and went for a swim at about 930 and the sun was just right. :)
4. Spent some time on my Piano :)
5. Then i made some fried rice for lunch. :)
2. Dropped by the management office to make a new resident card :)
(finally. after much procrastination. but i had to pay like $21. tsk tsk),
3. Got change and went for a swim at about 930 and the sun was just right. :)
4. Spent some time on my Piano :)
5. Then i made some fried rice for lunch. :)
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now..
I'm pretty satisfied. :)
and what makes me even happier is that ..
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6. i'm meeting Jul in town later for some Shopping! :)
(and i'm going to take bus. no cab. yay)
7. and i didnt blow up my egg mixture in the microwave this time. infact it was just right. yay! :)
Oh i actually had my steam eggs like 3a.m. in the morning before i slept (haha i know. fat.)
8. i bought Bought pirated Spongebob-ed themed Monopoly! :)
(it's so cute and only $12. i had to buy it!)
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:)
I'm pretty satisfied. :)
and what makes me even happier is that ..
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6. i'm meeting Jul in town later for some Shopping! :)
(and i'm going to take bus. no cab. yay)
7. and i didnt blow up my egg mixture in the microwave this time. infact it was just right. yay! :)
Oh i actually had my steam eggs like 3a.m. in the morning before i slept (haha i know. fat.)
8. i bought Bought pirated Spongebob-ed themed Monopoly! :)
(it's so cute and only $12. i had to buy it!)
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:)
DOUBLE CHEESEBURGERS
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I had cravings for like steamed eggs.
But was too lazy to steam the egg and i couldnt wait.
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I had cravings for like steamed eggs.
But was too lazy to steam the egg and i couldnt wait.
So i popped it into the microwave,
forgot all about it and the egg exploded!
Opened the microwave and i see egg bits splatted all over.
Now i have to clean up the mess and have NO steamed egg for supper.
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haha.
forgot all about it and the egg exploded!
Opened the microwave and i see egg bits splatted all over.
Now i have to clean up the mess and have NO steamed egg for supper.
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haha.
WELL DONE
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I am so going to the gym in the morning.
right.
i've said this a thousand and one time. But despite staying at my condo for like 10 long years, i never once stepped in. as in seriously.
so TMR (or rather today) SHALL BE DIFFERENT!
(but errm, i'm not too sure how to operate the equipments. haha "save me!" sekali i embarrass myself.
Oh and i must force myself to get up this time. )
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ANYWAYS.
Its either i dont eat. or i end up eating alot. and lately, i've been eating alot.
always snacking here and there.
and i always carry packets of raisin cookies in my bag for emergency. but i find myself constantly feeding on it.
(each cookie is like nicely packed into individual packaging. SO its super CONVENIENT . haha)
i guess a few already spotted me munching on it already.
AIYO. UGH What is this.
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So it's time to "shake off the shadows of my excess weight."
Too bad i dont get to "choose Mary France Bodyline to win back my waist and thighs."
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Need new swim wear.
the current one is giving me ugly tan lines.
eew.
but i cant seem to find a good one.
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Fatty fat fat :)
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I am so going to the gym in the morning.
right.
i've said this a thousand and one time. But despite staying at my condo for like 10 long years, i never once stepped in. as in seriously.
so TMR (or rather today) SHALL BE DIFFERENT!
(but errm, i'm not too sure how to operate the equipments. haha "save me!" sekali i embarrass myself.
Oh and i must force myself to get up this time. )
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ANYWAYS.
Its either i dont eat. or i end up eating alot. and lately, i've been eating alot.
always snacking here and there.
and i always carry packets of raisin cookies in my bag for emergency. but i find myself constantly feeding on it.
(each cookie is like nicely packed into individual packaging. SO its super CONVENIENT . haha)
i guess a few already spotted me munching on it already.
AIYO. UGH What is this.
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So it's time to "shake off the shadows of my excess weight."
Too bad i dont get to "choose Mary France Bodyline to win back my waist and thighs."
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Need new swim wear.
the current one is giving me ugly tan lines.
eew.
but i cant seem to find a good one.
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Fatty fat fat :)
Pains in my tummy for who knows how long already.
You know. Those sharp pain you get when you hold your bladder for too long.
But i dont get it cos i'm holding my bladder. it just comes and go and has been so for the past few weeks.
Last night was the worst and the feeling is still there now.
Strange.
Afraid its some stomach ulcer, stone in my tummy that kind of thing. BUT NAH. not possible.
Now i cant really sit properly cos the pain goes down my butt.
Very Strange.
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You know. Those sharp pain you get when you hold your bladder for too long.
But i dont get it cos i'm holding my bladder. it just comes and go and has been so for the past few weeks.
Last night was the worst and the feeling is still there now.
Strange.
Afraid its some stomach ulcer, stone in my tummy that kind of thing. BUT NAH. not possible.
Now i cant really sit properly cos the pain goes down my butt.
Very Strange.
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A Horrible nightmare last night.
Tribal people tried to kill jul, dom and i.
It was really scary.
Extremely Strange
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Off to church for class.
Goodbye! (:
Tribal people tried to kill jul, dom and i.
It was really scary.
Extremely Strange
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Off to church for class.
Goodbye! (:
We always look at someone else and say, Wow. They're living the life.
But oh you can be so wrong. . .
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Let's face it. No matter how "perfect" you think their lives are, there will still be areas that they will never be contented with. For all you know, my OH SO HIGH forehead can be someone else's secret desire to have. (okay not likely. haha but its an illustration you see) . .
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So, i'm learning. Not to look at another and covert over what they have or rather what we THINK they have. but learn to live the life the way i was created for and not trying so hard to turn it into something i THOUGHT it should be. . .
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Sometimes, things aren't always as it seems.
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21st June: Jolyn's birthday at Costa sands.
i miss being part of this family. :)
*more pictures next time*
But oh you can be so wrong. . .
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Let's face it. No matter how "perfect" you think their lives are, there will still be areas that they will never be contented with. For all you know, my OH SO HIGH forehead can be someone else's secret desire to have. (okay not likely. haha but its an illustration you see) . .
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So, i'm learning. Not to look at another and covert over what they have or rather what we THINK they have. but learn to live the life the way i was created for and not trying so hard to turn it into something i THOUGHT it should be. . .
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Sometimes, things aren't always as it seems.
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21st June: Jolyn's birthday at Costa sands.
i miss being part of this family. :)
*more pictures next time*
So tired already.
Time to rest and be of good cheer.
Things can't get any worse so we'll just pick ourselves up from here..
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I'm constantly reminded of Job.
His response to his really, really bad day was to fall on his knees and worship.
And because he remained faithful through his trail, God was able to turn the trail into a blessing.
Make me strong and teach me your ways.
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And we thought we were having a bad day.
HAVE FAITH AND TRUST.
Burgers.
Its getting boring.
so here's a series of random unrecorded events.
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How could i have forgotten to show this. haha
These are my poor friends on my birthday at joyce's place.
so here's a series of random unrecorded events.
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How could i have forgotten to show this. haha
These are my poor friends on my birthday at joyce's place.
(haha) yup. i did that to them.
all our went battery dead. so we had to use tushan's hand phone to take pictures. heh. and thats why its so blurrr. oh wells. :)
I still say tushan and i can pass off as siblings.
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Part of the cell's girls after Zone service.
The cell had dinner together at astons.
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Actually, i never really fancied astons. its so crazily packed nowadays and it was better when they had like that little shop in the Kopi-tiam next to their current shop. Although the wait for the food was longer then, but the quality was so much better.
Now, Its either i feel like puking after i eat, or i dont finish eating that little portion given.
How strange.
And true enough, i didn finish my food and ended up getting a headache and fell asleep on the table (and my cell was intending to leave me there and make a run for it! :) )
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Oh then it was to minds cafe.
Really hilarious.
Vincent kwan a.k.a. SHORT SHORTS was like diving into the pool of "bones" with that desperate look on his face because he didnt want to do a forfeit. haha
We should have caught it on tape!
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OH OH! then we saw Stephanie Sun there as we were leaving.
WAY Too skinny for my liking. and i guess they do ALOT of editing to her videos to make her face look so nice.
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Then somewhere along the week, i spent like 2 consecutive days with Aiping and Jasmine.
We had dinner with serene and caught Fantastic Four with Quek and benjamin. (waiting for them was like waiting for girls. but anyways. i like the stretch man compared to the fire guy. He's so much more charming. Dont understand why girls like the handsome egoistic dude. haha i guess i caught Cheryl Tay's influence about liking older men. haha)
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Anyways. we drove back to jasmine's place for a sleepover + mah jiong session cos it was her birthday and wee siang made me laugh the whole night.
NO KIDDING. i literally laughed the whole night. They are simply so entertaining
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gcam.
generations.creative.arts.ministry.
Candid shots and Narcissistic moments.
We dont call ourselves creative for nothing. haha KIDDING. that sounded so Buay hiao bye. (is buay hiao bye the word?)
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Spent the whole of Monday and Tues with Jul.
Swimming, Shopping, Shih-lin-ing, Starbucking, Sleeping, Swimming, Cartel-ling.
Quite unlikely of us, but we bought the same bag just different colour. It was so perfect we had to buy it. haha. whatever.
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Oh wells, Its been quite a long time.
Every friendship needs maintenance and i'm pretty sure this isnt like one of those seasonal friendship that come and go.
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Anyways,
Night time i met up with Peilian and the guys for dinner at clark quay and at then to MINDS Cafe (again). haha like what's with that place right.
i guess COS ITS quite CHEAP and its really a good place for fellowship and fun.
Plus, tuesday is ladies night. yay.
OH and i won in a game of Citadels. HAA EH that game needed BRAIN power and strategy one okay. (so Good job lav.)
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Then we followed dairus back to get his car and off to Hong Kong Cafe for supper.
and There were like only 4 siew mai each time we ordered so we had to play open numbers so the odd ones out dont get to eat! aiyo So miserable. haha but it was fun
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Alright. thats all for my OH SO RANDOM POST.
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OH OH. my mum just roasted some baby purple skinned Japanese sweet potatoes. (okay whats with the long name. its just sweet potatoes)
jiu wo. its so nice. i love it.
Reminded me of the time when i was in Taiwan and in Hong Kong.
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UGH. i miss travelling. and i need to get out of this country but i need money. oh wells. I'm just glad i paid Part of my debt for my HK trip. the load feels lighter now.
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Goodbye
generations.creative.arts.ministry.
Candid shots and Narcissistic moments.
We dont call ourselves creative for nothing. haha KIDDING. that sounded so Buay hiao bye. (is buay hiao bye the word?)
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Spent the whole of Monday and Tues with Jul.
Swimming, Shopping, Shih-lin-ing, Starbucking, Sleeping, Swimming, Cartel-ling.
Quite unlikely of us, but we bought the same bag just different colour. It was so perfect we had to buy it. haha. whatever.
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Oh wells, Its been quite a long time.
Every friendship needs maintenance and i'm pretty sure this isnt like one of those seasonal friendship that come and go.
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Anyways,
Night time i met up with Peilian and the guys for dinner at clark quay and at then to MINDS Cafe (again). haha like what's with that place right.
i guess COS ITS quite CHEAP and its really a good place for fellowship and fun.
Plus, tuesday is ladies night. yay.
OH and i won in a game of Citadels. HAA EH that game needed BRAIN power and strategy one okay. (so Good job lav.)
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Then we followed dairus back to get his car and off to Hong Kong Cafe for supper.
and There were like only 4 siew mai each time we ordered so we had to play open numbers so the odd ones out dont get to eat! aiyo So miserable. haha but it was fun
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Alright. thats all for my OH SO RANDOM POST.
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OH OH. my mum just roasted some baby purple skinned Japanese sweet potatoes. (okay whats with the long name. its just sweet potatoes)
jiu wo. its so nice. i love it.
Reminded me of the time when i was in Taiwan and in Hong Kong.
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UGH. i miss travelling. and i need to get out of this country but i need money. oh wells. I'm just glad i paid Part of my debt for my HK trip. the load feels lighter now.
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Goodbye
Its like one after another.
Spent the whole of yesterday (wed) with Dajie before he left for his BMT and HOOHA. i had to fall ill. So much for trying to make it an enjoyable day! UGH.
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I simply vomited out of no where in the middle of Marine Parade Central, Now, my body is aching all over, i totally lost my appetite, have bad headaches and my eyes hurt. When dajie took my temperature at night, it was like 38.5 degrees. (thats considered fever right?)
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Spent the whole of yesterday (wed) with Dajie before he left for his BMT and HOOHA. i had to fall ill. So much for trying to make it an enjoyable day! UGH.
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I simply vomited out of no where in the middle of Marine Parade Central, Now, my body is aching all over, i totally lost my appetite, have bad headaches and my eyes hurt. When dajie took my temperature at night, it was like 38.5 degrees. (thats considered fever right?)
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We thought it was dengue cos i got quite a few mosquito bites and i had all the possible symptoms except the rash. But i doubt so la. Phew.
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Oh wells. i dont know what is happening lately. I just feel like i got whacked here and there.
Hospitalization, breakdown, Robbed, ill, My Pillar is gone etc etc.
I'm not too sure but i'm trying my best to hold on. so pls understand.
oh wells. i'm still smiling. :)
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Oh wells. i dont know what is happening lately. I just feel like i got whacked here and there.
Hospitalization, breakdown, Robbed, ill, My Pillar is gone etc etc.
I'm not too sure but i'm trying my best to hold on. so pls understand.
oh wells. i'm still smiling. :)
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FOR YOU
Yup. your eyes arent fooling you.
Thats Dajie and his weird antics once in many while. haha. (pls dont kill me for putting this up)
I actually had it in mind a long time ago. haha its a dedication you see.
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Anyways, i've been spending most of my time with Dajie lately, just to make up for the time that i dont get to see him for the next 2 years. and maybe becos of that i've neglected some others. Oh wells. Pls know i havent left.. really
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This reminds me. Dajie's mum and i went tekong with him. Being a nice girl, i had to help carry her packets of ta bao-ed rice and her water bottle which got so heavy. Well i dont mind actually. but doesnt feel good when you have a bad headache. i thought it wasnt nice to let her Carry. so i was like trying so hard to Tahan.. but its okay. all the walking made me feel better somehow. :)
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OH OH...and the whole tour was like a brain washing session. telling us how much welfare SAF has and stuff like that. haha. i guess its not all true like all recruits would tell you after their first 2 weeks of enlistment huh. haha
Dajie in his "Mohawk hair" was like fidgeting and smiling when we were entering into the auditorium while the other guys sat so straight. haha. i cant imagine a funny guy like him in the army. To Aunty Peggy and i, we still think he's pretty much a boy. haha. BMT - When boys become Men. haha we'll see! anyways. Hearing them repeat the oath was pretty cool. You have this weird feeling in you that says hey He's going in... like NOW. oh my. Then reality strikes.
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But I saw this poster at Tekong which says: "its not what you lose, but what you gain in the years ahead." then there was this picture of an army guy and his girlfriend (i think) haha. but i guess thats so true.
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We came a long way. Not as long as some but long enough.
Maybe thats why it meant so much :)
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Right. we look the same la. (thats cos i chose the nicer older pictures. haa) heh
Its for my viewing pleasure thats why. :)
aii. and we dont have much pictures together. cos half the time i'm taking pictures of him. haha. next time maybe. when the hair grows back.
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BIRTHDAY.
Its long over. but anyways. yeah went to some indo restaurant at paragon with jasmine and aiping to celebrate jasmine's advanced and my belated birthday today (thurs). haha pretty funny. Lots of laughter and all. and we're all staying over at jasmine's place tmr for some old time bonding.
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anyways. i really love all the gifts given. (other than the fact that my $20 gift card from topshop is also stolen but coinidentally, i got 2 new bags after losing one. so yeah. not so bad.) Everything was so thoughtful. so THANKS :)
BUT i'm seriously IN LOVE with the sunglass that tushan and gang gave. Dajie says it suits me better than all my other glasses. so i guess they made the right choice! haha. I never had anything from oakley. other than 2 fake oaklet t-shirts that i wear for sleep.
another thing that i'm HIGHLY IMPRESSED with, is THIS...
Bought? Nope. Its made. by? zQs. Yes the one which i kinda caused a hole in his window. heh
Its made with what? guess!!! okay ITS CLAY. Hand moulded. Really. i thought it was bought..till i saw the ugly finger print marks on the glass. oh my. i kowtow to you. haha
Even the picture taken looks professional. jiu wo.
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thank you.
enough for now.
time to sleep.
Robbed.
Bag, handphone, camera, wallet, cash, cards, vouchers, keys, two new shirts, Make-up.. ALL GONE.
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a smashed window and a dented door of an expensive car belonging to a sway friend.
Whats left?
My Sim Card (which i took out and put into an old phone cos my LG got no battery)
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a smashed window and a dented door of an expensive car belonging to a sway friend.
Whats left?
My Sim Card (which i took out and put into an old phone cos my LG got no battery)
and our Safety.
Now..
Now..
I'm traumatized.
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Yup.
Singapore's not a safe place after all.
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Lesson learnt
Singapore's not a safe place after all.
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Lesson learnt
Read the warnings signs at the car park.
Take your valuables and dont leave your bag unattended.
Have tinted windows (haha) and a working alarm system.
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Have tinted windows (haha) and a working alarm system.
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I'm so sorry Zeng Qinsheng! at least you got insurance. (:
(There you go. your public apology haha)
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(There you go. your public apology haha)
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And we thought these things dont actually happen in real life.
Say goodbye to my TEEN-hood. and hello TY. :)
Before you know it, i'll be married with kids.
Okay.. Thats is still a LONG way to go.
I cant believe i'm 20 already.
I'm only 10 years away from 30. and believe me, from now till then, the time will pass exceptionally fast.
Oh my. the thought of it already scares me.
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But i guess it doesnt really matter to me. Since young, there is always this urge of growing up and having my own family as early as possible. i mean its Unlike many girls nowadays who probably say that marriage is the last thing on their mind only till they have their future all mapped out la.. haha but Dont mistake me.. Its not like i dont embrace single hood. I DO I DO! maybe i just have a more old fashion mindset. or is it just Auntiness. :)
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anyways. why am i talking about all these. its so random.
i think i'm going through this teen-ty, tween-aged crisis thing. errm is there even such a thing?
i Dont know, but there is totally no excitement for my birthday. Even weeks before. I mean, i cant wait to turn 20, but i dread the whole process of going through the birthday as much as i want it to happen.
HEH. Right... i have no idea what am i talking about. See what i mean? haha its the teen-ty-aged crisis thing!! Gloomy at the little-lest and silliest thing. SIAO
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Even though i wasnt looking forward to this whole birthday thing i still had fun somehow. so thanks people for trying. i really appreciate it. :)
The Zone sang, and i received little gifts from the most unexpected people. like the guys from dominic's and johnny's cell haha. how sweet.
Oh and My cell who bought this really sinful mouth watering chocolate cake and sang AGAIN. haha.
Guess what. I'm forever young and only 10 years of age. haha.
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Before you know it, i'll be married with kids.
Okay.. Thats is still a LONG way to go.
I cant believe i'm 20 already.
I'm only 10 years away from 30. and believe me, from now till then, the time will pass exceptionally fast.
Oh my. the thought of it already scares me.
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But i guess it doesnt really matter to me. Since young, there is always this urge of growing up and having my own family as early as possible. i mean its Unlike many girls nowadays who probably say that marriage is the last thing on their mind only till they have their future all mapped out la.. haha but Dont mistake me.. Its not like i dont embrace single hood. I DO I DO! maybe i just have a more old fashion mindset. or is it just Auntiness. :)
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anyways. why am i talking about all these. its so random.
i think i'm going through this teen-ty, tween-aged crisis thing. errm is there even such a thing?
i Dont know, but there is totally no excitement for my birthday. Even weeks before. I mean, i cant wait to turn 20, but i dread the whole process of going through the birthday as much as i want it to happen.
HEH. Right... i have no idea what am i talking about. See what i mean? haha its the teen-ty-aged crisis thing!! Gloomy at the little-lest and silliest thing. SIAO
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Even though i wasnt looking forward to this whole birthday thing i still had fun somehow. so thanks people for trying. i really appreciate it. :)
The Zone sang, and i received little gifts from the most unexpected people. like the guys from dominic's and johnny's cell haha. how sweet.
Oh and My cell who bought this really sinful mouth watering chocolate cake and sang AGAIN. haha.
Guess what. I'm forever young and only 10 years of age. haha.
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yeah. so after that Dajie came and sent me home cos my mum said she bought 2 pieces $1.90 cakes to eat for fun. haha Cheapo. and i insisted on blowing a candle so we managed to find one from under the sink. haha. Cheapo again.
Meyer tried wishing me happy birthday. he's smiling. can you see? haha
right. Then we went another round of dinner at The Ship. (Shaw centre). The steak there is really nice. Nicer and slightly cheaper than Dan Ryans. Heh. haha. i was so full and mind you i had like a bowl of laksa an hour before. la la la.
Meyer tried wishing me happy birthday. he's smiling. can you see? haha
right. Then we went another round of dinner at The Ship. (Shaw centre). The steak there is really nice. Nicer and slightly cheaper than Dan Ryans. Heh. haha. i was so full and mind you i had like a bowl of laksa an hour before. la la la.
Then we caught a local production called Men in White. its a "ghost" show. well not really but oh my goodness.... the show is HILARIOUS. its a Must watch. haha Its Dumbly, Lamely funny la. so just expect to laugh becos its so lame. And heck the newspaper reviews. i say its funny. HA HA HA.
I mean Sometimes People think and analyse too much about a film till it becomes too Un-intellectual and too lame to be funny. like Shrek the third. i think its Super funny what. haha. not as good as one and two la. but still stupidly funny.
anyways ya. watch this local show. its FUNNY.
okay. enough already.
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Ya so basically thats all for the day. on the 9th.
Oh oh. and i got a sunflower! my favourite. Really made me smile.
i didnt celebrate on the 8th cos we had like music rehearsal. and i spent my midnight count down eating nasi lemak with some of the band. Haha. sad case.
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Come to think of it. This year's Birthday sms wishes can be counted with like 10 fingers? (dont count friendster la), and presents errm less then 5 fingers..? Now Does it affect me? haha Nah..not really. Cos these things dont matter really. in fact i was just looking forward to asking God for a gift. Something that material things cannot satisfy.
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ANYWAYS.
my most prized birthday present so far? its probably the Oakley Sunglasses that Tushan and gang bought me. okay name the gang (tushan, martin, junwen, joyce and peilian). haha. so clap clap.
i was so dumb i thought Oakley sunglasses were bullet proof. haha. zzz someone told me that when i was younger okay. i didnt think of it myself. haha.
Oh yes. I met them on the 10th. for our supposedly long awaited dinner date at Sushi tei since who knows when. haha then we went joyce's house to "play".
It was hilariously fun. Pictures next time.
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Well. It's been a really tough week. tougher weeks ahead i foresee. but i'm pressing in.
i guess i freaked out many people in my previous entries. haha Eh NO WORRIES. everything is OKAY. just sudden emo-ness.
So Now i'm left home alone with almost everyone going up for Church camp. BOO HOO. Boring.
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Time to rest.
Goodbye.
:)
i've not always been the best man for you.
But your love, remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.
Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
:)
But your love, remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.
Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
:)
(2005)
Still remembering the old.
I miss you.
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Create in me a clean heart, O Lord.
And renew a right spirit within me.
Cast me not away, from thy presence O Lord.
Take not thy holy spirit from me
Restore unto me, the joy of my salvation.
And renew a right spirit within me..
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As the deer panteth for the water
So my soul longeth after Thee
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Even so.
Sometimes the truth is that no matter how desperate i get, It still doesnt work that way. Whyy.
Who am i. What have i become. I need to find who i was and I miss the old me. I lost the principles in which i once thought i stood so firmly on and i'm desperate for change..
Mistakes made and you want to make a turn from it. but where did second chances go. Somehow this whole thing about Forgiveness doesnt really work in real life, maybe only in my life.
People remember you for your past and the bad things you do more than they they remember the fact that you are desperate for a change.
Where did second chances go.
I dont deserve it i guess. Now i question my existence.
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What am i saying. what is happening.
I'm sorrryy.
I just need someone, just anyone, to believe that i can do it again. To believe that i can different
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End of the road
I might be dissappearing
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I'm sorry.
Boredom
$276.20
Thank You.
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I knew i was born special.
Ha ha ha.
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So is he...
and so are they.
$276.20
Thank You.
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I knew i was born special.
Ha ha ha.
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So is he...
and so are they.
