What’s next?
I’m jobless, school-less and aimless. :)

Here’s THE DOWNFALL
1) At Pri 5 I had a Grade 5 cert in Piano. Mum wanted me to complete Grade 8 and take a diploma in music so I can teach if I’m ever jobless. I got itchy and QUIT learning just because I was lazy.
Now, I totally (okay not entirely) forgot how to play.

2) Too lazy in primary school so I did fairly okay only. My mum is a teacher, so i SHOULD have done well and i had many opportunities. But ohwells.

Got itchy and ranked Ping Yi as my 6th choice for fun.
Got “lucky” and got into Ping Yi but didn’t know where Ping Yi was.

3) Too playful in Ping Yi, didn’t do well in the first 2 years and got myself into a lousy class taking Literature and Art in the 3rd year. (Okay kinda my 2 favourite subjects anyways.) So, i did pretty well in Sec 3, excelled in the most unlikely subjects like Math and Chemistry, became a wannabe over achiever in non-academic activities.
From a class position of 20+ I became 2nd. From a level position of 100+ I became 20+.
Got itchy and lazy and stopped paying attention just before the big Os. Studied last min and couldn’t get into JC. Cry cry cry.

4) Got into TP business IT instead. Know NUTS about IT, decided to be anti-social so I didn’t participate in camps. Thought I was too busy so I didn’t join a CCA. Didn’t do well, but i could have done well in the final Sem to push up my GPA and get pretty good grades but just got itchy.
Now I’m left with AVERAGE grades with NO non-academic achievements.

5) Got rejected by NIE, and MISSED the other Uni applications. Actually, the main reason is not because i MISSED the application but i deliberately missed it. haha
Now i question myself. WHAT AM I TRYING TO DO!?

I was just thinking. I could have gone into SIM if I had applied for it. Then I would have gotten back on track and end up in NIE later and finally teaching.
Being jobless, I could have been teaching music or giving tuition if I’m smarter.

I could have gone into a good secondary school then to JC then a direct route into UNI. And my future would be all planned out.
I believe I’m not stupid. okay duh. no one is stupid. Haha But seriously, I think I can be quite an achiever because i know I do well in things. But there’s this element of laziness and I cannot follow through what I've started with. Really a Jack of all trades, master of none.

TOO LATE TOO LATE.

Now we only look back and say, “why didn’t I?”

and i realise just how many "could have been" i've said.

On a lighter note, I believe everything happens for a reason. Haha I wouldn’t have met Him if I didn’t get into Ping Yi and yes, wouldn’t be in Cornerstone and yes, wouldn’t have know jul and the rest and YES, i would be who i am today. So okay, not so bad!

BUT

I’m jobless, school-less and aimless
What’s next? :)