All she wrote

Wednesday, March 7, 2007 @1:35 PM

Between the lines

Before meeting young minds.

i think i can pass off as tushan's sister

*pictures some other time :)

Finally it’s over.
BIT night was not that much of a blast. It could have been better. Somehow there is an awkward emo-ness about missing school and the people. Strange.

Did I make my 3 years worth? - I guess not. What have I learnt? - I can barely recall. I’m turning into adulthood. So what will I do? - I need to know. All that self reflection has made me realize the urgency of so many other things and that I have wasted almost 20 years of my life. Time to get in line!

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?

I think many feel that they don’t belong. At least I do. But i’m intending to come out of my comfort zone. Be it in the new cell group I’m in or even in school, i try to make the best out of it. I’m not extroverted by nature; I just am because certain circumstances require me to. I’m not talking about just wanting to be part of something, but it’s about taking control of what we want to do. I have the power to decide but Jesus, take control.

Now.
My whole situation is made from clay to stone. And now I'm telling everybody. I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately. I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do, or who I'm supposed to be. I don't want to be anything other than me.
I’m somehow confused lately. Think I’ve done TOO many things wrongly. My friend asked me, how can you minister to others when you cannot even take control of your own feelings and emotions? So true but I’m only human. Help me.
I’m tired of chasing after things that are intangible and that will never work out.
I don’t want to end up disappointing myself and hurting others.
Ugh! So what on earth am I up to! History is repeating itself.
It’s getting harder each day. Pls slow down before I break down. Certain things you don’t have to discuss with other but you just know what to do.
I want to be on the road towards perfection and not destruction.

HOOHA. This is craziness. Jul’s mum just booked a flight for us to Hong Kong. OH Oh oh!!! I cant wait! I’ll bring my most outrages there.

* Oh yes, Alvin! I’ll ask you out soon! Hammy is hungry and you are remembered by me. :)