Saturday, March 31, 2007 @2:11 AM
we could make it better

Yes. so it was my first dinner and dance. haha it was interesting?
I thought i would look super out of place. but guess what. The people are dressed even more outrageously than i imagined. Some in a Bee-like costume, "wedding gowns", english man etc. haha Oh my, and suddenly i was thinking, why didnt i go as Cat woman (really). haha. But yes. i didnt go as cat woman. i look like i'm going orchard road. haha What is my problem. okay nvm.
TP dinner and dance is really just a costume party. haha

See what i mean? haha
OH! But the emcee was really really good. He made the event THE event. But as usual, all the disgusting crude jokes and typical games etc but oh wells, i guess these are things you'd expect? So Nvm.. i filtered my ears. :)
And the food was yummy. Worth my $58 definately. cuz i ate like 3 person's share. Super unglam i know.

I had the cat woman corset. but i chickened out on that. haha OH WELLS.
I love my gloves and errm the mask. :)
Jodin! you look so Qian Da in your Mafia outfit.

So.. These people were at my table. + cynthia's other twin (which i got so confused after that) and Pei lian's Friend Suo Wei. Once again, they made me feel part of it all. :)
Vishal won best dressed. Errm why? i dont know. he looked normal to me. Maybe its the ricky martin dance he did. :) Eric, played some MTV game on stage. and the guy in white (i dont know his name! oh my) won the first lucky draw. batteries. HAHA. talk about lucky draw. i was so desperate to win. haha practically shouting out my number 00330! 00330! 00330! but i didnt win. its MEANT TO BE. 1st prize is the sony psp. haa. i guess i wont need it la.
So. Quite alot of action there at my table i guess.
Then everyone went clubbing at MOS. la di da di da. haha. yes yes.. BUT i didnt go and i went home :) haha
Sometimes its pretty tempting. (haha i cant believe i'm saying this here). i mean i would go for the sake of "fellowship" la. but then again, i can fellowship somewhere else with them. so i guess i'll pass on that.
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Okay, yes.. I went back to work at Ben and Jerry's on Thurs cuz my manager asked me to.

It seems like i've never left.
It was ice-cream snacking all the way. :)
I miss digging into the dip cases for my cookie dough's dough and chunky monkey's ice cream. Really the BEST combination ever.
Oh and digging for fishes for jia and oatmeal chucks for jun.

Then it was fishing at night. i Caught one fish. and it was our only fish. so YAY. i win.
I seriously think fishes are the grossest thing alive next to insects. esp jumping prawns.
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Today. as in Friday. Jul and i went to ASTON. haha ASTON. (its like totally so cool to be there. haha whatever!) then some guy who sat beside us came saying, "sorry, just a random question. My friend and i were discussing. what RACE are you?"
THANKS ah. I really look MINA mehh. jiu wo. haha.
FLU. UGH. cannot breathe. and i think the fever is coming. boo get well soon lavvie. :)
Wednesday, March 28, 2007 @5:08 AM
Just so you know
Good night Lavvie.
Believe it or not, i just got home. UGH. am i really becoming nocturnal or what.
I went out in the evening to buy my "costume" for the dinner and dance and I was quite surprised to find a shop in Fareast that sells just about every thing i need; Black gloves, Black mask, and a Black Corset (which i'm still deciding whether to wear or not).
Okay yes, so i'm going as Cat Woman. HAA. i dont even think i look like one. i have no ears, no tail and no whip. What's worst is that everyone else seated at my table will be in DRESSES and there i am in black pants and a corset top with gloves? errm. i'm not too sure i'd fit in! :) What if every one is like in Victorian dresses, nice formal wear and here i am looking like a thief!? heh. and i almost bought this plastic leather like corset top, which is REALLY cat-womanish. BUT. its too over the top haha. Besides, i dont have plastic, leather pants like Olivia Newton-John's to match that haha.
I’m just thinking. How on earth am I going to arrive at the Marriott Hotel without looking stupid on the streets. Haha.
HELP. I can’t believe I’m doing this. Ugh. Since I’m so bothered by it, why can’t I just dress normally right? haha Tsk tsk.
I don't understand myself sometimes. :)

Thennn i met Tushan, junwen and martin for BEAN. I was expecting it to be more hilarious. But i didnt like laugh my lungs out. Okay some parts were really funny and the little boy is handsome. haha so i give errm 3 stars?
I'm Waiting for SHREK the third! :) :)
Starbucks again. Heh. Jul introduced me to steamed milk with vanilla and now i'm addicted. Had a cup yesterday too while i at Vivo alone (shopping for corsets and ended up spending so much on other stuffs)
Tell me. Who on earth craves for MILK. haha

Go buy your own noodle. haha


I'll be narcissistic just this once. :)
Wait. i look mina meh? (is it spelt mina?) tsk. Why do they keep telling me that. haha
Aft that we drove over to this Ulu ulu mall opp hard rock cafe to find mudddd and his jamming studio. HEH. apparently his friend is Mr ong's son. So they bought the entire unit + all the instruments etc. Well the billionaire father paid for it so they're running the studio and collecting the earnings into their own pockets without having to even fork out a single cent!
Seriously. in our society, the rich gets richer and the poor gets poorer. Its so easy for the rich to churn out more money while commoners like us slave our entire lives just to earn a fraction of their bank account. Its so unfair. But i guess i'm not made to be rich cuz God knows i cant manage my finances. haha. So thank God for putting me in the Lam family!
Then we played cards at the studio till like 3.30 am. It would have be later if i havent forced them to leave! haha last night we had supper and after which we played at changi beach till like 4am!?
my Day is from 12 - 6am seriously :) :)

Look what i found at home. endless supply of kinder bueno and Mars!! Mum wrote a note and told me to eat sparingly haha. (There were 3 more pkts of bueno. but i ate it)
i foresee ulcers! :)
Excited about DnD i guess.
Sunday, March 25, 2007 @10:58 PM
You got me right where you wanted
Today.
God surpassed my expectations once again.
I know i couldn't have done it without him.
RAINBOW :) :)

I will try.
@2:52 AM
i'm wanting more
One of those few things that made me happy this week. :) :)

Long awaited Dinner.
Its Ba Kut Teh at Suntec on Wed. umm...
(I told you i would put it up! haa too baddd)
Hungry already?


Half eaten meals look disgusting.
And Dajie isn't convinced that Chilli Padis are THAT HOT. Ate one and couldnt eat for the next 10 mins + drank all my lime juice without permission. haha *pen tan!* -stupid.
Starbucks. My new favourite hangout. (i think) haha
A pillar i know i can always fall back on.
thank you thank you thank you thank you.
For being so tolerant :)
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Oh and Guess who i met on friday. Haa!
I LOOK HORRIBLE. too tired and un-made up.
ugly shorts, top, face, hair and bag.
Okay like who cares haha.
BEAN is the primary focus here :)
Oh wells, its 3am. and i'm not sleeping yet. ahhh WHY.
i know its really bad, but i can't help it.
Poohhhh pls keep me companyy........
(and thats all to my collection haha majority bought by steph. Teri too. ;))
OKAY. I HAVE TO SLEEP. I MUST
I've been given the opportunity to lead 2 songs tmr. or rather later.
(one is a hillsong kids song! *The rainbows in the sky to show God's promises are true....* haha i like :) :) )
But Oh God pls help me. I need you like the air i breathe.
All the signals, the feel, the flow. Ugh, i dont know! But i'll try.
Use what i have, Do what i can and let God do the rest. + Pray pray pray.
right. Dont talk rubbish, remember to open my eyes, look at the congregation, be confident and be sure of what i want to do .
OKAY! i'm excited! yay...
errm. JIU WOOOOO haha
Tuesday, March 20, 2007 @6:30 PM
Take off your earings if not it'll STING your ear.
Back from Hong Kong!!
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The trip was great. other than mean people from mainland and rude people from hong kong(Ugh. bad impression), we had fun!! 8.5 over 10 i give.
Do we look like we're from Thailand? Ugh. So many were like asking us if we are from Thailand. And we had people snapping pictures of us secretly (till I gave them my deadly stare and ROLLED my eyes at them haha) SICK dudes, Angmohs took a picture with us and we made friends with this German (but I was so afraid he would stalk us back to our hotel haha). We also had people crowding around us to find out what perfume we were buying and bought whatever we bought. Everyone wanted our opinion and help them choose a perfume. Haa as if we were some perfume expert. OH and we LITERALLY took all the public transports you can ever think of in HK almost in one day. Quite adventurous for two girls I must say.
If there’s one thing I want to bring back, it’s the weather. coool. haha
Good thing i speak their language. Grandma has taught me well. communication is sooo much better.
Oh and i use to hate pearl milk tea to the maxxxxxxx. But now, i love it. and i'm craving for it. Should have brought more money to Hong Kong. The things are not as cheap as you think it is. Only certain things. Like the night market where you get to bargain. and i got to Cut, blow, wash, dye, hightlight, bleach my hair for only $96 SGD. WHATTTT!!!! haha. and the factory outlets. HEH. Real Adidas jackets for HALF THE PRICE. WHATTTT!!!!! i didnt buy. Too convicted cuz i have one at home already. :P Other than that. HEH. transport and all so expensive la. So.. sorry people! No gifts. Remember that we're on FREE andEASY. haha
Pearl milk tea. Pearl milk tea. pearl milk tea.
I really dread coming back to Singapore. Maybe not exactly stay in Hong Kong but I want to travel! So next stop. New Zealand in May. HAHA. (JUL, it’s CONFIRMED) but Money really must drop from the sky.
My mum is super blur. Do I have really bad communication skills or she has really bad understanding? I have no idea which part of my trip she doesn’t understand. Haha Initially she thought we had four people going together. That’s why she allowed. Then she found out that is 2. And she freaked out. THEN she thought I was on tour. Okay. So she felt better. Then she found out, it was free and easy. And she freaked out again. But I’m back safely. So she can stop interceding for me every day. Haha (that’s what she said she was doing) Think she got shocked too many times.
Fireworks at Disneyland was……………… OH BURGERS! Really really nice. And we saw it for the second time on our way back to S’pore. Only this time, we saw it from the plane as it was flying over Disneyland. That really completed the whole trip.
I have to publish his face.
There. i met Rain. Yeah right. On MTV i mean. haha they were playing his video non-stop for half and hour. his killer smile. oh man. so mesmerising. Yes i know. This is really unlike what i would say. But i didnt realise he's so charming till now and i'm really impressed with his live performances. haha okay. NOT IMPORTANT.
I think Hong Kong was a good break for us. Just to take our focus off routines, stress and expectations blah blah. How many times do you get to go away for a week and not think of others and anything else but just to enjoy. it feels good. it really does.
mummy and daddy are also nicer now. Less up-tight. :) i'm glad. mum even offered to buy me a digi-camera within this few days. Budget $700. wow lifetime opportunity! better grab the money and go before she change her mind and swings her mood again haha. (Qin sheng, i think you can find a good one for me? haha) Think i'll take my time to choose and spend only some on the camera and use the rest to pay off my debts for the trip. YAY.
Oh yes. Rejected from UNI. HOW COULD THEY. oh wells, time to find other alternatives! :) Never say die. Yes.
Meanwhile. Find a job and settle down.
Pictures on HK. LATER. too lazy now. But you must see this. HAHA
Speialialised; Albone; French FRIED.
and i thought my spelling was bad.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007 @1:37 AM
dont be a pain in the neck!
Home from Ignite.
We have had supper at Bedok north for 2 consecutive nights! And Words of wisdom from Fabian :"ho ji deh, ho ji deh, ha ha ha"
Drama gave me stiff neck. As in serious pain in the neck! i was in such a weird position with my head tilted downwards and oh my... the strain!! I was perspiring, tearing and groaning under my breath. When will it END! I literally cried la. Haha Yes I have low tolerance. Uhh I wonder what NCC has taught me in the past. But hey. try standing there for almost the entire sermon! haha hopefully I don’t end up like sabby 4 years ago with that neck problem.
Don’t think I can make it for ignite tmr. Mum won’t let me leave for Hong kong if I don’t bath meyer, clean the house and prepare a power point for her. If not. No allowance too! I haven’t even packed my luggage. And our flight is SUPER early. but oh oh! hong kong! too exciting
Eh ah ka liao! I will see you later for some music and lyrics. :)
Monday, March 12, 2007 @2:22 AM
I don't plan on sleeping in
This is it.
Hong Kong this weds! I can’t wait!
It feels so weird cuz its only going to be Jul and I, with NO parental supervision! I guess that’s what makes it Sooo exciting. (haha)
This trip has burned a huge hole in my pocket and I feel so in debt! Oh wells. It’s going to be Fun fun fun. Haha. Mum is getting “annoying” about it too. Constantly asking, “Girl, have you bought insurance!?, have you packed your luggage?!, have you changed your money?! Remember to drink water, check your passport, take care of Jul, find out where the s’pore embassy is, print a copy of your passport, carry the address of the hotel blah blah… haha Even to the extent if saying the typical, “don’t eat things offered by people!”. haha but Yes yes, I have it all registered in my brain. Part of her strategy was to make me recite all the things I have to take note of, on our way home yesterday. Heh. I’m still mummy’s baby la.
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With jul looking like that, it makes me worry. hahaha
So if no one hears from us by Tuesday, pls send a rescue team! :)
I wish I had the finances to travel more. So far I’ve been only to errm, Bangkok, Bali (speaking of which, Thats the only place my family and I sat on a plane together), Medan, Batam, Malaysia, England, France and Taiwan. Majority of which is for the purpose of camps, school trips and all. BOO! But oh wells. I wont complain cuz I know I’m slightly more privileged than many out there. So I’m thankful. :)
The travel fever is stuck on me NOW. I keep feeling the urge to go overseas. The next trip will be to Myanmar in Apr. Mum says she’ll sponsor me cuz it’s a mission trip. Haha. That will really be a load off my financial budget. So Next aim for now is to, Korea (if it’s ever possible), China, or Aussie! (with friends of course)
I won’t be sleeping for sure.
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Okays. Something really random.
Here's our regular friday worship rehearsals.
For this team, its really about who has more "seh" or simply who are the goofers. (haha)
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Saturday, March 10, 2007 @1:48 AM
Keeping it together
Yes. 6th march. Our so called "graduation" day. :)
Its the last year in TP. Maybe i should i go for Dinner and Dance? haha Mask Party. Heh dress as what? Cat woman maybe.
I really think i miss school. STRANGE.

Friday, March 9, 2007 @1:53 AM
unfailing love, never fails
I don’t know how to tell you how much I love you. I don’t know how to prove that you’re always on my mind. I CARE but no one seems to know how much I do.
Ah gong and po po, please… I beg you. Don’t cry. I wish I could share your pain. I wish I could carry your burden.
Mummy, daddy, please… I beg you. I just want to please you. Stop. Pls stop.
I’ve been asked to shut-up too many times. So numb. I no longer desire to speak and i’ve deleted all emoticons from my system. Have I really become someone else? I can’t recall who I was before. Could I have matured? Or is it just an emotional breakdown?
I felt you this morning. Finally. Nothing could be better than this.
Pick me up! I’m still running. Yes I am :)
I need a break before I suffocate. Send me away to ‘New Territories’. I’ll stay there for just 6 days. :)
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Today.
Arcade with my girls. shooting spiders and toads can be really scary. haha

DP at delia's place. Oh and Baby caleb pls stop moving :)

Uncle Tong Neng and Aunty Sabby. Who needs cod beds anyways.

Dom and his license, friends who take advantage.

Joseph?! stuck behind.
Ba chor mee and chicken wings.. I'm satisfied. :)
Wednesday, March 7, 2007 @1:35 PM
Between the lines
Before meeting young minds.
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i think i can pass off as tushan's sister
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*pictures some other time :)
Finally it’s over.
BIT night was not that much of a blast. It could have been better. Somehow there is an awkward emo-ness about missing school and the people. Strange.
Did I make my 3 years worth? - I guess not. What have I learnt? - I can barely recall. I’m turning into adulthood. So what will I do? - I need to know. All that self reflection has made me realize the urgency of so many other things and that I have wasted almost 20 years of my life. Time to get in line!
Welcome to the planetWelcome to existenceEveryone's hereEverybody's watching you nowEverybody waits for you nowWhat happens next?
I think many feel that they don’t belong. At least I do. But i’m intending to come out of my comfort zone. Be it in the new cell group I’m in or even in school, i try to make the best out of it. I’m not extroverted by nature; I just am because certain circumstances require me to. I’m not talking about just wanting to be part of something, but it’s about taking control of what we want to do. I have the power to decide but Jesus, take control.
Now.
My whole situation is made from clay to stone. And now I'm telling everybody. I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately. I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do, or who I'm supposed to be. I don't want to be anything other than me.
I’m somehow confused lately. Think I’ve done TOO many things wrongly. My friend asked me, how can you minister to others when you cannot even take control of your own feelings and emotions? So true but I’m only human. Help me.
I’m tired of chasing after things that are intangible and that will never work out.
I don’t want to end up disappointing myself and hurting others.
Ugh! So what on earth am I up to! History is repeating itself.
It’s getting harder each day. Pls slow down before I break down. Certain things you don’t have to discuss with other but you just know what to do.
I want to be on the road towards perfection and not destruction.
HOOHA. This is craziness. Jul’s mum just booked a flight for us to Hong Kong. OH Oh oh!!! I cant wait! I’ll bring my most outrages there.
* Oh yes, Alvin! I’ll ask you out soon! Hammy is hungry and you are remembered by me. :)
Tuesday, March 6, 2007 @3:20 AM
i dont wanna be anything other than me
I can no longer sleep. My eyes bags are heavier than a dozen elephants put together.
Meeting young minds and BIT night is only a few hours away. Yawn. Sadly it’s the last time we’re seeing most people and I’m no longer going to be a student. Wonder how it would be like.
Oh and yesterday was one of those rare chances that I get to travel to school with transport right at my doorstep. QS came over and drove me out for breakfast then to school. How nice. :)
I wish I could drive! But I’m too lazy to sign up for lessons. Need to manage my time.
I can't help but feel strange these days.
Sunday, March 4, 2007 @3:50 AM
Go home.
Finally i stayed over at jul's place. Think we should tape our mouths before going to bed. :) i should asked for more blankets cuz i almost died frozen last night. haha.
Stripes and cows are just so pretty.


Ohh haha toilet shorts. i had to post it.

Oh and this is a really random picture from long long ago. when i still had my long hair and jul had her funny willy wonka hair. I look so much older 2 years ago. feel so much younger now but i'm starting to look like a kido. haha. hey but there were no Eye bags then. booo... my eyes are getting dimmer by the day.
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If the sky is the limit, then space is over the limit.
So exams are over. I just hope i dont have to take any supp paper cuz i'm really not confident AT ALL. Totally committed suicide by leaving an entire 16 marks question blank!
I guess SIP and the 2 months break made me less inclined to studying. its like i no longer know how to. BUT. I hope i'm "tai ko" again? haha Martin will definitely kill me.
Okay. So yes after the paper i went Tamp mall with martin and gang. They were so cheapskate! Dress up so nicely but end up going to the arcade and waiting there for almost 45mins just because they wanted to go in during the lunch promotion at Phins. haha It was getting late so i left without having lunch with them.
Got home, rested a lil, packed my stuff, met up with pei lian and the rest and made our way to the BIT chalet. Oh and my worst nightmare. Its at Changi Aloha again. haha good thing this time its at Chalet B. way nicer than chalet K. anyways. How strange. I actually went? haha but oh wells, i had fun unexpectedly again.
Right. My hair isnt that ah-go-go-ly *ponk pong*. its the shadow. Wait till you see QS take off his cap.
So Here's my very Ah Ka Liao friend. Fat, Sentimental, rich but thrifty (although you just bought a camera that is like what $****) ought to be beaten up AGAIN.

OH OH! and the food. heh. oh my its like what.. lagsane, lamb etc etc. Why put good food to waste? So i helped myself to round 2 of course. :)

During the chalet it totally blew my mind about the people in school? In our DP retreat we had to ask people to clean up, some didnt help, so helped willingly, blah blah.. But at the chalet its like automatic. Jason so gentlemanly and willingly cleared the place, mop the floor. others wash the dishes, pack up the stuff etc.. I'm really impressed. Even the most unlikely people helped. you think that they are rich and pampered but they still do the dirty job. Really impressed. Sometimes we must really learn from the people out there...
okay i shall stop digressing. haha
back to the point... ohh and it was like a mini game hangout already. there were groups scattered all over the place playing black jack, mahjong, board games, PS2, more card games blah blah. If you are thinking... NO i didnt gamble. But the people were so cute. they bet like 10cents 20 cents and when they win, they stop playing cuz they are afraid of losing, and when they lose, they dont change more coins to play. How disciplined. Really impressed. haha i thought they might go wild gambling or sth. hahaha.
I guess its been a long time since i've been to events like that with people other than church friends. so its like an eye opener. :)
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Go into the rooms and you spot some weird activities going on.
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And here is the legendary uncle wong. Known even in JB and some say batam as the very pervertic, certified tuition teacher. Okay i'll give him credit for bringing me pass year 1. now i'm almost a happy graduate. At the background is also another legend in BIT, Matthew. Smarty pants.
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Then it was like 3 a.m and some of us walked over to Changi V for supper and we dangerously took pictures like in the middle of the road.
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I totally give myself credit for not sleeping at all. We were hoping to catch a glimpse of the sun rise. But WRONG DIRECTION. HEH.
and I think i can consider photography haha. yes yes.
Peilian and QS.
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I think I need sleep. and only childs sit together.
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OH YA! Gary. haha Really Book smart but definitely not his coordination! We laughed our heads off seeing how he flopped in a game of go jump go, go jump back. (something like 7-up but more complicated.) He's the worst i've seen so far.
Q2 and me. actually i kinda like this picture? but Sadly its is blurred.

what a long day. We went to macs in the morning for breakfast and yes i have like emcee rehearsal in school at 12pm. I made a wrong choice by deciding to go home cuz i fell asleep and never woke up till it was like 3 plus. and i totally missed my rehearsal! tsk tsk. i'm suppose to be at jul's place. oh man timing timing all gone wrong.
I keep thinking, why didnt i meet these people earlier? only when like i'm about to graduate or rather "graduated" then i get to know them. Oh wells. its like how didnt keep my friends in secondary school. sad and strange. Oh but I'll give credit to Qin sheng for widening my circle of friends in TP. :) its definitely more memorable.
Till then.
Thursday, March 1, 2007 @4:13 PM
whoever said nothing is impossible, never tried slamming a revolving door....
hooha. We shall never be slaves to the academic system anymore.
Whats next.